I decided to make this after having the worst night of my life ever, actually 24 hours. It killed me. Inside I was dead, I couldn't bring myself to eat barely anything, and I didn't want to sleep.
BUT it's okay, and now I thought it was such a good idea I'm keeping to it.
This is for Tommy, my best friend and someone I love more than I ever thought I could.
He is an amazing person, and I couldn't stand loosing him. He is funny, smart, a musical genius, and so understanding.
I met Tommy around December, but he remembers more than I do about the date. I met him on a website called "teen chat" and well, he lectured me about using the name "lolita" for obvious reasons, but I did argue in my defense it is first a book, and second a fashion style. I ended up adding him on msn, and it just went from there. He became someone I could just rely on, and he went through hell, I wish it never happened but it has.
We became really good friends, and agreed to be like brother and sister, because we were so close and the amount of trust in that relationship. He has always told me he loved me since Januray or February, I'm not sure, but I had my biology coursework near the time he deleted my number and went offline after arguing. This was because I didn't feel the same, and I didn't want to be involved with anyone.
I called him up, I spoke to him and we remained friends. But since the 7th or so of June I realised it was so much more, and yeah I told him. I can't even remember how, but I did. I love him and the week that followed was the best and the worst.
We argue, we fight, and I hurt him time and time again, I haven't figured out how I can't. I just need him, and I love him to bits.
Tommy, I love you. Babydoll I never want to loose you.
What the description used to say:
I made this for someone special, and amazing.
Someone I love.
This is for him.
Somewhere I can tell him how I feel.
How much I need him in my life.
But now things have changed...
