Alone

I just realised that I am all alone. There is no one in this world I can talk to. I think I scratched my back too hard, I can still feel the sensation. The heat and I suppose the burn, it only bothers me because what happens if it marks? I mark so easily. I'm not going to cut, but I can do what I always do, scratch and tear at myself.

And then I check my phone and it's going to start all over again. I'm too shakey, I can't trust anyone. Hell, I used to be free with my trust and now... well I had someone tell me I looked good today when they saw me and all it makes me feel is like a slut or something, and it's lies.

I distract myself too much nowadays. I hang out with people who I probably shouldn't but I fit with, I plan on being notorious, in the sense of throw it all to the wind and just be bad. Be as bad as I can.