i go from angry to sad
sad to nostalgic
to emerging myself so deep in your music i'm okay
i don't know what i want
i don't want to rely on you anymore
i really don't want to give a shit
why the fuck is it taking so long?
i'm 17 i should feel invinceable, like i have the whole world within reach, like i have a future. i don't even see past this summer.
i have realised this, right now. if i'm going to kill myself i want it to be the end of this summer. an end to everything. i don't even know why i'm tempting and teasing myself like this. an end to all of life's worries, the stress and conformity.
i'm addicted to sad songs, and hope is such a funny word.
fuck my life, i don't need it anymore, all i do is hurt everyone. i'm picking fights with my family so they will just leave me alone, i'm pushing them away. i want to spend my summer with a group of people who just accept you for you. they are the nicest people i have met, i don't care if they do drugs, smoke or drink. we all know somehow i'll end up doing it.
i feel some what hopeful right now, but what happens when i stop listening to your music and i no longer see the lights or hear the music? i'm dead the moment that happens. i wish i knew when i'd die, i'd count down the days. i'd know if i could survive until then. somehow i know i won't kill myself, i'll be one of the walking dead.
this version is better than yours, at least that singer has the emotion
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