I'm utterly heartless and cruel to you, I don't mean to be, but I am. I'm bad for you, I really am. But I'm here for you, when and if you need me. I'm sorry I don't mean to be so awful, I honestly don't. I'd never do anything to hurt you on purpose.
One Tommy, I wouldn't be in a relationship if I thought it was only temporary, to me that's just wrong. Life is for living with as much meaning as you can give it, so why start false things like that? I really do, honestly care for you. I love you, it's the reason I started this blog.
Two, I'm sorry if I ever made this sound it was like a temporary relationship, it's not. I was wanted you to know I don't know if it's going to last, because very little does, it's a normal thing to feel. No one, least of all me honestly wants their future mapped out, and for me that a lot more than I want, I never want to know my future exactly. I don't want my life already planned out, I want to explore and grow up, but things are how they are. I'm with you, and your stuck with me for the seeable future.
Maybe we will last, maybe we won't. But whatever happens I loved you as my best friend before and that's always going to be a big part of our relationship, the biggest of it all. Best friends before, during and even after if anything happens. As close as close. I've told you more than anyone else, and I wouldn't have if I didn't trust you, I'm a really guarded person a lot of the time. You have been one of the only people, and really the only one I have ever told truthfully how low I have been and how much I've needed someone at what you call, sub-life crisis.
And finally, I meant as I have hopefully explained, I meant platonic was the underlying love, the foundations and the beginning of any other love there is, which there is a lot of. I love you so much! Let's just run awaay and get married, I'M JOKING! But I do love you, and I'm not joking about that.
I love you Babydoll
Lea xxx
Babydoll,
ReplyDeleteI never want to tie you down. I want to see you blossom, flourish and bloom. I'll allways be here, Lovers or friends, 'Til the last gasping end.
You've shown me a world that was out of reach,
An innocent mind with so much to teach,
To say this is love would be putting it wrong,
I cant describe thats why i write my songs.
I write them for you and i write them for us,
The futures unwritten but trust is a must.
I'll keep you happy, secure, safe and warm,
I'll keep you on the tracks I'll be there long after dawn.
Lets do this thing, sequinned hearts fits,
Glitter kisses and lipstick, stings quite a bit;
But not like a blade, to hide the like the shade and shame of a past that we will never be to blame.
I love you my muse, My artistic world, helping me stumble and bumble through my semi-autistic blur.
For me things are for life.
Kinships should last.
But if they fuck you up,
BURY THE PAST!
I Love you so much. Cant wait to get this collage done.....tape will be so pretty....i have loads of vintage stuff too.
See you soon my sweet